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This Love Is Scary and Unfamiliar.

This Love Is Scary and Unfamiliar.

Ulises Vargas

October 2, 2025.


If there’s one repellent I’ve found most effective 

It’d be the terrible “L” word and flowers 

When someone else loving yourself 

Must be insane 

To love that which you yourself do not love


Is this not what you wanted? 

Have you not chased an unconditional love

Down the dirty alleys and in a broken home 

Hoping to find this love 

That is peaceful and pure?


Was my heart too heavy 

For you to hold; 

My embrace, too comforting 

For you to trust? 


Run, run away

I can’t make you stay 

Because I won’t abuse you 

No matter how badly you want me to 


I love you, but you’re not healthy 

One day, you’ll escape the delusions 

And recognize true love 

Or maybe the next will hit you 

And their fist won’t be as scary 

As the “L” word and flowers

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